Best Valentines Gift EVER!

Yes indeed I do have the most wonderful significant other. For Valentines Day he bought me a ticket back home to Leamington! So let's just say this last weekend I was blessed immensely!! You see before I went home for the weekend I had a really stressful day. Why?

Ok so there is a wonderful student here at MCI that I have gotten to know quite well. She is a little rough around the edges, but really deep down has a heart of gold. She came here to MCI in the middle of October. Before this, she dropped out of school for a year because she was struggling with some really deep and heavy issues. We connected right from the start and I was beginning to form a really good relationship with her. Well as the weeks continued her old habbits started to set in again. Sleeping in, not going to class, staying up late, disrepesting authority. I tried to stick with her through this and would try to encourage her to come out of it but it seemed like nothing really was working. The principal, for lack of better words, kicked her out of school for a weekend to give her a wake up call. He told her if she didn't start attending classes she would be asked to leave. After the 'wake up call weekend' she was ready to give this class thing another shot. She went to all of her classes for 2 days in a row! Immpressive for her (sad I know). But then once again she slipped back into her habbits of sleeping in and when us deans would try and wake her up her response would sound something like, "...go away" "don't! .. leave me alone! I wanna sleep" So this is what I let her do. And last Wednesday 6 days after the 'wake up call weekend" she was asked to leave campus and not to come back. And the saddest thing was she wanted to be here but wasn't motivated to fight for it. Moreover that Wednesday I cried. I cried because at the time I think I was blamming myself; thinking that because I 'gave up' on her is the reason why she is going home. Oh and the cherry on top of this big mess of a cake is: Her mom kicked her out of the house. She is 16, its averaging a good -15 outside, she has no job/money... what is she supposed to do? But I guess this is where all I can do is pray for her and leave it all in God's hands.

So yea after that whole ordeal of teary goodbyes, I took off to Winnipeg where the next day I would fly home and see my wonderful boyfriend. Seriously this time I was kinda nervous. I don't know why... Maybe it just was the overwhelming excitment that I would see him again! yea... thats it! lol! And really we spent the weekend doing nothing, which was amazing especially after that crazy rollercoaster ride of emotion. Seriously to all those people who work in emotionally draining situations, make sure you take care of yourself. Take time to chill out and relax and do nothing. Recharge your batteries or you will have nothing to give to those that you are supposed to take care of.

well there is my rant for the day.

God keep her safe, guide her way.

I enjoy folk music

Yup I do enjoy folk music. Honestly... I think I enjoy it because I can see myself playing and singing this genre. It just seems like it doesn't matter if you have a 'pretty' voice. It can be raspy or you can be an alto... it doesn't matter. Folk artists seem to play because they just love producing music. They love to sing, so they will sing. They love to play... so they will play guitar/piano/accordion/harmonica or what have you!

Yesterday I went to a show in Winnipeg and Andy Shauf, Zachary Lucky and The Bravest Ghost were playing. What an amazing show! I felt so relaxed and I could have sat there forever and listened to them play. They made it look so easy you know. Their fingers just flowed up and down the guitar and these incredible melodies came from their mouths... I WANNA DO THAT! lol! I do, I do, I do!!! I wanna play in a coffee shop, I wanna inspire people, I just wanna play and sing! But I get to insecure. Seriously playing guitar and singing is one of my first loves.. but having people hear me is one of my worst nightmares. Especially songs that I have written. GAH! dumb dumb....yup.

soooo yes maybe you will be hearing some folk tunes in the future... no promises though!

Put Your Name in the Blanks

Psalm 121
I look up to the mountains,
does my strength come from the mountains?
No my strength comes form God,
who made heaven, and earth and mountains.

________, He won't let you stumble,
your Guardian God won't fall asleep.
Not on your life! Israel's
Guardian will never doze or sleep.

God is your Guardian, _________,
right at your side to protect you-
shielding you from sunstroke, _______,
sheltering you from moonstroke.

God guards you, _______, from every evil,
he guards your very life.
He guards you when you leave and when you return, ________,
he guards you now, he guards you always.

Do you trust God? Do you have confidence that he will guard you?

Wanting More

So I got a new journal on the weekend and I just wanted to share a bit from my first entry:

I crave things that are real. Things that are real don't always make sense.. or maybe the make the most sense, it's just we don't always understand it. Like....love. How would you define love? Can you define love? You really can't. Maybe you would go about saying, "well there are four kinds of love like: the love of things, friendship love, family love, and romantic love" But you really wouldn't be able to give one definite definition. But, when you love someone it feels right; it makes sense, but you don't always understand it. And also you don't understand how you got to that place where you know that you love him. Especially since I knew him for at least 10 years of my life and only for the last 6 months I have realized that I LOVE this handsome, spectacular man. Wow..... do I ever miss him.

Yea it has definitely been a long January this year. Hopefully February and March will fly by. But yea, along with the theme of wanting more. My wonderful friend and I were talking about our relationship with God and wanting more. Wanting to know he is real. Wanting to feel him. Wanting to hear his voice. Wanting our relationship with Him to flourish. But the question is how???? We have been asking a lot of people this question and maybe you can help me out to. Why do you believe in God?